Worrying .....

I have been worrying quite a bit lately. For some reason I typically go through phases of worry throughout the year. Maybe it's because when I go through a significant amount of stress in one area all other areas in my life are affected, which makes me feel like there is something wrong with everything. I don't know. But I've been significantly stressed out by one major area lately. Ahem.... my job.... ahem. I hate how this worry causes stress and makes me look for negativity in every other area of my life. The worst part is that I can't figure out why I feel stressed out in all areas of my life in the moment. When I stop and think about it I realize that I'm just letting my worry in the one situation get out of control. I wish worry and stress didn't have to affect me this way. Does this only happen to me? Are most people able to compartmentalize their stress into individual life categories? I sort of doubt it. But GEEZ, is it ever confusing.

And THEN my worry makes me feel out of control and crappy about myself, which makes me stress out even more in every situation. For some reason I find it really hard to communicate with people in my life when this happens. I feel like I can't "talk it out" when I'm going through something hard because I feel like once I start venting I won't be able to sort everything out as I'm letting it all out and that everything I vent about will scare people away from me with its negativity. So I hold it all in and then seem awkward and distant. YIKES. I wish I could just fly to BC and stay with my family for 6 weeks. Or 8 weeks. Or more. So to all of my friends out there.... if I've been weird lately, this is why. It is HONESTLY nothing personal. :)

I think tonight I'll sleep in the living room. It will feel like a mini-vacation. I'm not hard to please.... all I need is a slight change of location and I feel like I'm on an actual vacation. Or maybe I'm just used to not going anywhere, ever. Sigh.

Earlier I was watching CSI. Grissom ... what a cool dude. I love him. He's the smartest. Most smart? Smartest? Anyway, in the episode I saw there was a perverted guy guilty of doing weird stuff with his daughter. As this came out in the show I said "Sick son of a bitch!" out loud. Seconds, literally seconds after I said this one of the main characters said exactly the same thing precisely the way I said it. The freakiness of the situation made me say "Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!" even though no one else was home... I'm telling you, it was PSYCHO!

Anyway, I'm ridiculously tired.... Maybe I'll go set up my "vacation" bed now out in the living room!

Oh, before I end this post........... picture time. We went to a family wedding this past Saturday...

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Here we are, trying to look normal and pose nicely.

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And here we are being the way we usually are. Oh, I love my family!! :)

Apparently I've been tagged...?

Thanks Sonya. These things are somewhat cheesy but this IS fun.....

"Here are the rules… Each person tagged gives 7 random facts about themselves. Those tagged need to write in their blogs the 7 facts, as well as the rules of the game. You need to tag seven others and list their names on your blog."

1. When I read before bed, as I do every night, I always get very tired very quickly. So tired that my eyes start closing. When I can't take it anymore I lean over to turn off the light and I always say to myself, "Yeah.... that's awesome", in a dry and sarcastic voice. I don't know why I do it.

2. I long to be one of those short, cute, petite girls. None of this lanky, long-armed, taller-end-of-average nonsense. I have always longed to be super short. When I was in grade 8 I drank coffee in attempts to stunt my growth because I knew I was headed for tall-ville. (Note: I'm not exactly an Amazon. I am 5'8". But I would love to be so much tinier than that.)

3. I am STILL embarrassed that I thought "Kincardine" was pronounced "Kinker-deen".

4. I named my old car "Sophia Labatt". I am not sure how this happened. I think Jordan had something to do with it.

5. My favourite types of movies are ridiculous, obnoxious comedies. Like Super Troopers. And Shaun of the Dead. I make absolutely no apologies for this.

6. Beautiful music makes me want to cry. Sometimes this means that the banjo makes me want to cry. Yes... I too love the banjo Sonya! I really really do! You should check out Sufjan Stevens.... pretty much immediately.

7. I am secretly attracted to both Michael Bluth and Gob Bluth from Arrested Development. The magician thing is a turn-on. Even if Gob IS a total idiot.
Oops, I guess it's no secret any more ...

I tag Claire, Amanda and Sharon. Sorry about the 7 people thing... I don't really know many other bloggers who actually update their blogs or would be interested in doing this. Basically ... they are not as cool as we are. :D